The first step is admitting you have a problem...

Hi. My name is Samantha, and I am a Foodaholic. 

That sounds kind of silly. But it's really how I feel about my eating. It's out of control. 

When I stepped on the scale two weeks ago and it registered at 341 lbs, I cried. How could I have let myself get to this point? AGAIN? What is wrong with me?

Time and time again, I'll lose the weight., gain it back (and then some). I can't do it myself, I've proven that time and time again. I thought, " I need a 12-step program."

So back to Weight Watchers I go. 

Weight Watchers is the only thing that has ever worked for me. I couldn't figure out why. I googled "12 step program" and once I started thinking about it, That's precisely what Weight Watchers is; a 12-step program for fatties (I can refer to overweight people as that because I am one:)  According to Wikipedia, all 12 step programs are based off of the following method:

1. Admitting that one cannot control one's addiction or compulsion.  By joining WW, I'm admitting I don't have the tools/strength to do this on my own. I mean, hell, Food talks to me. And honestly, it's pretty pushy. 
2. Recognizing that a higher power can give strength. I have to have faith that I will get the strength from somewhere to overcome my struggles. Only God can give THAT kind of strength.
3. Examining past errors with the help of a sponsor(experienced member). On WW Online, it's the message boards. If you choose to go to a location, it's meetings. These resources are invaluable. 
4. Making amends for these errors, This is allowing myself to be forgiven. By me. It's also committing to making better choices and treating myself/body better. No one can do this but me. 
5. Learning to live a new life with a new code of behavior. Working the program. Simple as that. Accepting that what I was doing before is not going to work if I want to lose weight. Seems like this should be obvious, but you'd be amazed how easy it is to forget this fact. 
6. Helping others with the same addictions or compulsions. Whether I'm still working to lose weight or if I ever reach goal, this means still helping others reach their goals and overcome their food issues and supporting their journeys. 

So, here I am, 2 weeks in and I'm down 7.2 lbs. (starting weight was 337). You might be wondering what is going to make me stick with the program this time, seeing as I've done it before and stopped. And all I can say is that, the way I see it, I have two choices- Manage my addiction, or let my addiction manage me. Much like any 12 step program, WW only works if you actually work the program. Ultimately, it is up to me. It's my choice. Some days  it is a choice that I make daily. On other days, it's a choice I must make hourly. And on really hard days, when stress has beaten me down or I'm depressed or I'm being tempted by some of my favorite foods, it's a choice I have to make every minute. But it all comes down to one thing- It's my choice

Today, I'm choosing to work it. 

I'm worth it.